Its like I am at loss of soul. A person can't live without soul I know it but I dont get the feel of being happy and reunited and talking with the soul. Its not the first juncture of change but has become tough because the biggest support of mine, my family is not there.
Its been more than 40 days, have met mummy papa once but I am not able to adjust at all. I am searching my family, my ambience , my home, dat road, my home's jhula, my terrace, my 2 sweet nephews..and what not!!! My soul is tied there may be but I am trying to live here. Trying to keep pace here. But what should I do when my feet which has pain asks for a cream and remembers mummy's saying of everyday "put d cream." when i want to have a tea and I do remember the tea in plates from my muumy, I want to say mummy here I try to make it cool , but my tongue gets hurt every other day. When its dinner time, I dont keep water d way I used to keep....when i snooze my alarm 5 min, t never says "Anu hum tumko ab noi uthayenge". Why isnt di here to shput @ me when I am writing this post @ 2:20 am.???
Life has become changed. I am not ready to accept it. Everyone is trying to comfort me but I am lost. I am an amateur wh desnt know how to handle fake people, who doesn't know to hide everything inside her sleeves, to put on masks, to deceive, to abuse, to be selfish. People were bad but there goods in the past to back me, Here there is no good to back me up. You get only attacks and setbacks. I am continuing the journey with hopes from all d caring ppl of mine... I dont have any strength, just going for this line "KHUD HI KO KAR BULAND ITNA KI HAR TAQDEER SE PEHLE KHUDA BANDE SE KHUD POOCHE BATAAAAAAAAA TERI SAZAAAAA KYA HAI????????????????????????????" i want to be strong, with all this positivity I want every inner frce of mine to come and guide me through this. I know you exist, you are watching me, guiding me through your lamp , pls be with me, my family, frmnzz........
Its been more than 40 days, have met mummy papa once but I am not able to adjust at all. I am searching my family, my ambience , my home, dat road, my home's jhula, my terrace, my 2 sweet nephews..and what not!!! My soul is tied there may be but I am trying to live here. Trying to keep pace here. But what should I do when my feet which has pain asks for a cream and remembers mummy's saying of everyday "put d cream." when i want to have a tea and I do remember the tea in plates from my muumy, I want to say mummy here I try to make it cool , but my tongue gets hurt every other day. When its dinner time, I dont keep water d way I used to keep....when i snooze my alarm 5 min, t never says "Anu hum tumko ab noi uthayenge". Why isnt di here to shput @ me when I am writing this post @ 2:20 am.???
Life has become changed. I am not ready to accept it. Everyone is trying to comfort me but I am lost. I am an amateur wh desnt know how to handle fake people, who doesn't know to hide everything inside her sleeves, to put on masks, to deceive, to abuse, to be selfish. People were bad but there goods in the past to back me, Here there is no good to back me up. You get only attacks and setbacks. I am continuing the journey with hopes from all d caring ppl of mine... I dont have any strength, just going for this line "KHUD HI KO KAR BULAND ITNA KI HAR TAQDEER SE PEHLE KHUDA BANDE SE KHUD POOCHE BATAAAAAAAAA TERI SAZAAAAA KYA HAI????????????????????????????" i want to be strong, with all this positivity I want every inner frce of mine to come and guide me through this. I know you exist, you are watching me, guiding me through your lamp , pls be with me, my family, frmnzz........
