Yaad Toh Karoge

Well it's the lockdown period here in India and I am revisiting this blog .. this time to write something 😊

Dec2019 end : China was witnessing first case of Covid 19

   

Same time around in India : I encountered a stranger while I was returning my home from workplace.

It was a cold night and I was late , on top of it, it was a Tuesday. This is a weekday where congregation of market takes place in the rural area where I work. 

So I was a bit angry that now the bus will be overcrowded and it will be late since there will be more commuters. 

I boarded and from the next stop a huge crowd entered , thankfully I travel by city bus which has some seats reserved for ladies. So today, as always on Tuesday ladies stepped in the bus with their groceries and I was wondering now the cacaphony shall start.

After 7 minutes, to my relief, the bus started. My neighbor started chattering to the lady in the front, let's call her Miss X. So X was very happy that day and while chatting she gave 2 plants to my neighbor.

Out of curiosity and since I love plants I asked my neighbor, what's this veggie and how is it cooked? She replied, "Oh, this , it's a Tomato plant, the Desi (organic) one". 

I took a sneak peak on X , since I also wanted the plant😉. She understood and handed me some 3 odd plants. With this she also said " Le lo Didi , Ghar mein lgana, jab inme tamatar (tomatoes) aayenge tab yaad toh karoge mujhe".

Translation : keep these Sister , when it bears the fruit , you would at least remember me.

Now out of those 3 , 1 plant survived. In February it started blossoming with yellow flowers. Till Feb end, I had 2 tiny tomatoes, the first ever vegetable grown by me.

And by March 21, I had my first ripe tomato. Now in this lockdown, as the tomatoes are growing and started to ripe I remember X a lot. 

You never know what the words mean until they actually become reality. I never thought I would remember X and her words " Yaad toh karoge".

Fake or time??

I am in a jest. I am still thinking whether I was wrong in keeping faith or whether its just a joke for people who are "friends" to me. I always helped them, made them smile and put them to life whenever they were not really on the track.

And now when I think they were never there for me; not even remembering if I exist!! Now the jest is very simple. Is it simply  the time that keeps people away from communicating or the people were fake?? I do not have answers and neither do I need them. Its good either ways with me but still I do have confusion and uneasiness.

mera mood mood , tera kuch nhi!!! (Only I have problems, you have none!!!!)

Why do people forget that everyone has some problem or the other. They are not the only ones who are cursed in this cruel world. In the first place I do not understand that if they do not have the intention to share then why do they show their frown faces ??????
This is one side of the view for me. On the other side with my closest friend I am angry that he was not there to listen when I was in so much pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I suppose this is a human tendency to go on with such issues that they always think their grief is much more than the other. I will not try to defend myself by saying that I cried a lot and am always alone whenever I need a friend ....it is all bull shit.

But I don't understand why this happens ??? Why at times we are unable to understand the problem of the other. The answer can be love with the closed ones in this case of mine not talking to him. But again in the first case of people becoming angry to strangers is inexplicable to me still. Why do we become angry to strangers or the people with whom we can't share our own grief??? What have they done to you?? They didn't generate the curse for you neither they did provoke you to share with them. Then why so much anger or so frowned face to them??

If you don't want to share in the first place don't come into the public and make it a PDG (public display of grief)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Keep your griefs to your inner self and behave in a normal way with the surrounding people if you want to come to public. There is already enough trouble in this world, people are already so tensed with their own problems, then why do you increase the tension. Not all the people (even your acquaintances and sometimes friends) are having the patience to bear and hear more troubles.

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P.S. Forget your problems and try to smile , you don't own all the problems in this world. Also when you will smile continuously, may be it will become habit and sadness will actually run away from you.

a suggestion....

the moments keep rewinding in life,
things keep on changing their stride.

life comes to take a whole turn
some moments never return

live them with a zeal
save them in your eyes like a reel

they will not return how so much you try
there is no use even if you cry

start living moments from today
if you have not at least start keeping your troubles at bay
so that your heart is open for new memory
remember these will not be erased with emery 

and then whenever your life flashes in the mind
you will have to stop yourselves from forgetting present and getting bind

How these relationships develop???

Fist they were not even ready to come out..then started coming to eat (as for the personal interest) and now they start playing as soon as I go and sometimes it even seems to me that as if they are waiting for me............


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This is the context of the six small puppies here at my university. They live in the bushes under their shades and never dare to come out. Very small, so delicate these puppies are, it sometimes that even by a touch they are afraid. The lines above describe my relationship with them.

And with this I started thinking about how human relationships develop and prosper. At the same time also about what is the difference between developing relationships with pets and humans.

I could get one thing, all these relationships start with some kind of personal benefit to one party and then for the selfless satisfaction of the heart and soul. But why do the relationships with humans fail and with pets it continues even you do not feed them.

Perhaps humans continuously want self benefits and as soon as this comes to an end, sooner or later the relationships vanish. Then the friends turn to acquaintances and sometimes even to the state of being strangers!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are many incidences when such people come into your contact, they complete their selfish motives and then leave you. Now the question is what to do if you come to know that these relationships are mean and will last only till the purpose of the other is served. Should we continue or should we stop or should we start calculating our own profits from the relationship??The question is a queer one and I have not got any answers to it.

As far as I am concerned I generally behave in a normal way as I would even if knowing that the person is just fulfilling his self-interest with me. But somehow I have not got the ability to hide the fact that "Hey Mr I know your inner motives" look should be curtailed. It somehow appears in my actions and gestures which should be curtailed. I am trying to work for it and will advise the same to you my dear friend. But yes one thing is for sure though I make the person realize but I never ever ignore his/her work,

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As the destiny says.........

karm kar phal ki ichhchhha mat kar..

Do your work and forget about the fruits....:)

Inner self

It happens when you are unable to share much of your mind since months and suddenly you get a chance to talk your heart out to your dearest friend. My coolest friend forever, he makes me laugh, cry, smile, outcry, naughty, weird and all of the above myself.

It was sudden that we both were in the same city and could meet after about five months. I loved talking my heart out, felt satisfied and it felt like after such a long time my silence was heard. No words for these meetings, we leave each other for the hope of next meeting, not knowing when it will be next? There is always an anxiety, anger, talk, fights to be continued but when you meet, it all disappears, you are calm, cool and yourself. You feel words are a formality and your expressions are everything.

Its like a smile unstoppable, a river flowing at ease, the eternity of morning dew on a leaf and the purity of a child's words. You leave the world for that one meeting, all your sorrows come to your mouth easily which had not found a way of your face and expressions since long. The moments even if of short duration feel eternal and after the meeting you feel light-headed and even though your pains are same you are at an ease.

I think that's the magic of a friend. thank you my sweety. :)

Forgive

"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.Try to move on different paths, don't reply to the people in the same pan. Its difficult, but may be it can bring a change in the perspective. If not for anything else, at least you will save yourselves from the agony and anguish.